you make me sick, an i like it..

you make me sick.
i can't even get my thoughts together enough to form the sentences to convey this message clearly enough.
i like you so much i'm sick of you,
because i can't see you i hate you.
i think if we were jus us... we'd be fine.
i mean you was layin up on my all sweaty an shit heavy as hell sleep an i got mad when you moved, because even when your are at your worst. i mean WORST i still see the beauty in you.
because when your so damm angry all i see is that innocent girl sleepin..
i see the GOD in you an i'm in love. but the saddness an the hurt in you makes me sad for you.
I want you happy. I want to see you smile that beautiful smile every day.
when you get made at me an we don't talk i'm like a sad puppy wonderin when your gonna smile my way again..
i was pacin waitin to see you. i try to hide my smile because i don't want you to see the effect you have on me. i get around you an lose my complete inability to speak. all i do is smile an giggle. blush an wiggle.
like REALLY i feel like a lil girl wit a crush.
smdh. this isn't even a poem this is me VENTIN to you. like SHIT! i know you like me. you know i like you so why the hell can't we just do what WE do. fuck them people. they don't know shit about us or the things we do. they can't control our actions. they don't influence my thoughts. SHE doesn't influence my thoughts. this is all me.

                                              patience.
                         that's all either of us need.
 i need your patience because i still don't know what i'm doin. an i'm gonna mess up an let me APOLOGIZE in advance. but baby if you don't TELL me what's goin on or what i did then HOW CAN I FIX IT?! all i'm sayin is:
COMMUNICATION IS KEY TO ANY RELATIONSHIP.
*siggggggghhhhhhhhhh*
i have to be patient because i'm not what you're used to. i get that. i have understood that since day 1.. i know i get kinda irritated sometimes an i may snap but i'm tellin you now i don't mean it. i say shit outta anger when i'm mad. an so do you. i've seen it..

smh "it's a matter of if YOU'RE willing to TOLERATE their bullshit" an i can tolerate you. it's amazin because if it was ANYONE else that hung up on me i would NOT have called them back. YOU got me fucked up.
so now we're goin through whatever it is we're goin through an all i can think about is how much i wish i could be sleepin next to you tonight. FUCK! this is that bullshit io be talkin about when i be sayin "that's that bullshit.." smmfh..