why?

it makes me sick to my stomach that i even miss you. like why should i? u treated me like shit. i mean i guess we had a few good times but overall. the shit sucked. so why do i even miss you? it's like i find myself randomly thinkin of the good times we had.. it's like my mind wants so much to hate you because of the hurtful things you said to me but my heart is like but ya'll really did care about each other you know that right? i mean at least I cared.. so i hope you really cared. me you an hoopty have some memories. alot actually. i mean i can remember the smiles we shared the moments captured. i still have the pics we took.. my fave the one on our first official date. that was fun. i'm glad you did that foe me. shit. i'm tryin not to reminisce on the times we shared tryin not to remember playin in your hair. tryin no to remember kissin you.. tryin not to fuckin remember. tryin so hard to forget.