P.S.A.

this is me ventin.
you really played me for a fuckin fool..
well both of ya'll
you who claim to be a better friend than anyone else to me but yet you lie over stupid petty shit that really doesn't matter. i've jus learned that you aren't the same friend i had all those years ago an that i must sever the ties that bind. not sayin that i'm goin to end our friendship but i am sayin that i dont trust you anymore an you lost most of my respect. you keep doin what you're doin an keep on down the path yer on an you'll see that you are not as good of a friend/person as you put off.
no matter what you think i did it compares nothin to the fact that abandoned me in my darkest hour for your own selfish reasons. HAVE IT I'M THROUGH WT YOU AN YOUR PETTY WAYS.

an you.. damm i almost gave into you i almost gave my fuckin heart to you. i havent felt that way about anyone in a long time. i really felt like we coulda been somethin an all the lies that came out your mouth i hate to say this but i hope u feel the pain you caused me. i felt my heart break an it's already so damaged from everyone else who decided to play hockey wit it. you are now dead to me. if you see me on the street act like you never fuckin knew me. because if u say anything to me if you even look my way i might fuckin kill you. granted i'm typin out of anger right now but i mean it. ALL OF IT. don't fuckin acknowledge me. it's for your own health..

as for everyone else. i have officially shut down. i don't see the point of givin anyone a chance to get to know me because none of you deserve me. i've realized that the best thing for me to do is to be alone.

why should i give someone the power to hurt me.. that shit don't make no fuckin sense. i'm retreatin into my shell an no one is gettin in.. an if yer already in you better not fuck up cuz EVERYONE is on their last fuckin strike wit me. ain't no need in tryin to keep ppl around who don't wanna be kept.

I'M DONE. i am so tired of bein dispappointed. so tired of bein used so fuckin tired.




i wrote this out of hurt the first paragraph still stands. you have lost my respect an will never regain it.
but you my heart still longs for u in a way i don't even comprehend i hope we can fix this.