a letter to my dream girl.

Dear Woman of My Dreams,

if you saw me on the street would you even recognize me?
does she know how my dreams are filled with memories that we could make.
i've had dreams of our first date.
i'd take you to dinner somewhere nice an quiet so we can talk.
maybe a movie or we could go for a nice walk
i jus want to get to know you
because jus by lookin in your eyes
i can tell you have a beautiful soul.
i know that a woman as beautiful as you has many other beautiful women chasin after you
i don't even expect that you'd give me a chance.
an it sucks because i know out of all those women
NONE of them will EVER be able to COMPREHEND the love i can give to you..
i mean i haven’t gotten to far in the fantasies
but i can tell you your life with me
however long or short
will be full of love an devotion
because that's who i am.
i may not have alot financially but a girl like me makes things happen.
even if i gotta buy our dinner wit my foodstamps.
girl i will cook you all yer fave foods
then we can sit on my patio an watch the sun go down.
I may not be able to drive to meet you
but best believe I’d walk an if I had to carry you back I would
because that’s the type of woman I am.
an I know that not a lot of ppl want to take a chance on someone who has nothing but I figure it like this:
if u love me now when I have nothing
then when I have the world I know that our love is real
an believe me baby I’m GONNA have the world.
because that’s what you deserve an imma get it for you.
even if you don’t want it I still want you to know it’s an option.
I know that when your feet hurt imma rub em.
an anyone who knows me knows I HATE FEET.
but girl I promise I’d give you the BEST fuckin foot massage EVER.
I’ll grease yer scalp. girl I’d even bathe you if you asked.
I want to completely pamper you because it’s what you DESERVE.
I know I know this is crazy to you, but hey it is what it is.
I didn’t think I’d ever be sayin this to someone
because I am NOT the one to jus put myself out there like that,
but imma new woman these days
I’m like
“hey what’s the worst that can happen?
she say she doesn’t want to be pampered like a queen.
haha her bad cuz I’m sure someone will read my devotion
an want it for themselves.”
at least I hope.
who knows what the future holds.
I know I wanna hold you.
be there when ya need.
never make ya cry an if you happen to shed a tear one day
I’d be there to catch it because your tears are too precious to hit the ground.
*sigh*
my pleas may fall on deaf ears but I did my part an shared my feelings.

Sincerely,

theCAPTAINnikki.